I'm so sorry you're struggling so much right now. I know a lot of the time I feel the need to escape everything in my life...past, present, and future. I've learned that's the worst thing to do. If you feel yourself wanting to escape, try grounding techniques. And when you feel the need to end your life, reach out to us here, to someone like a friend or T or the crisis line, or journal, keep yourself busy, etc. We all care about you!

Hang in there.