ARGH! I cant seem to get my mind to just SHUT UP and let tings drop. But it's going replaying the same scene over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over at a million miles per hour, and IT WONT STOP!

my mind is buzing and buzzing and buzzing. not even music can calm me. maybe i should blast it. but i have neighbors. they may *****. so i shouldn't... fark me. i am annoying.

i thought the last few days of 4hrs of sleep was weird. this is spinning me round in circles of maddness. maybe i am going farking insane or something. and here i thought i was safe... i was Euthymic for the last three days, and it was great! Nothing was bugging me. Not even my own mind!

it just won't ever stop. will it? this will never stop. maybe i should just do it, and get it over with it. i am obviously tormenting my self, and it wants me to it.