i went off them 2 weeks ago to collect data on my self. I needed to be sure i was bipolar before considering continuing meds. they were making me worse oh they were. They gave me my first mxied episode and it scared the heck out of me. i have been journeling and monitoring my moods for the last 4 months.

but i need to more data. i need it! just a few more weeks of crazy, and i'l know my truth. i just need to endure this...

i was on lithium, and klonipin, and just starting lamitical. and nothing was working. in fact making me cycle faster, and more severe. it was too intense for me. i couldn't handle it. so i farking quit. i am a huge quitter, nd a fake. i should just disappear. no one would miss me....