go to bed to pills wake up to pills. Tonight before I took my handful of pills I sat there crying...knowing that I has no choice but to take them. I am bipolar I and without meds I am psychotic. I am a thyroid cancer survivor and I have no thyroid. Without pills I get very sick. When they took out my thyroid it was stuck to my parathyroids and they took then too - now I have hypocalcemia and extremely low vitamin D so I live on pills and I always will. I hate this so much and I cry because of it just had to let this out tonight. I want to be normal and not take pills anymore. Sorry just sad.