Thanks for the feedback. Both of you shed some light on what really happened. I just jumped in because I thought I would enjoy a little love affair before leaving for Vegas. Didn't get to know him before as a person. Had I gotten to know him, I think I would have quietly exited his life or not entered it all.

I'm taking the flashbacks as what they were...highly psychotic episodes where everyone treats them as normal behavior.

The relationship didn''t last long, never had a chance (fast or slow), I am hoping the the healing won't take long. I am already feeling much better.

I have learned from this experience though, and I know what hgihly disturbing psychotic behavior looks and feels like (it feels like gaslighting and numbing at the same time).

Thank you for your feedback.