I live in Baptist Childrens Home. Im on home visit right now. My mom acts like she dont want me even here. She acts as though she hates me and i have changed so much she just doesnt take the time to look at that. I dont know what to do anymore. Im so confused right now. There is nothing i can do to prove to her ive changed bc ive tried everything. Ive tried talking to her about anything. And she like dont believe me. Freakin i just dont feel like im wanted and i dont belong here. I really wanna come home though i hate it at the home. She told me i was there for cutting and my sex life but i had no sex life b4 i came. But little does she know ive been with 14 guys. 6 of them rape. She has no clue what the heck im going through and how bad i just need her. And my dad at that. She just doesnt know.