As many of you know, I confessed my 'uncomfortable' feelings to my therapist. I sent a follow up email telling her that I was miserable since admitting that to her. I asked her to respond with something, so that I will know where she stands with it.

I sent that on Thursday night and still haven't heard back from her. I am trying to convince myself that (1)she will respond before Monday, (2)she is not upset with me, (3)she won't make a big deal about it, (4)she is not going to kick me out of therapy (5)she is not freaked out by it (6)I can go into her office on Monday without having a nervous breakdown!

I was up until 4:00am this morning worrying myself sick about this. I finally took some sleeping pills around 10:00am and slept until 5:00pm. At least this took my mind off of it temporarily. Now I am back to frantically checking my email to see if she has responded. I am angry with myself that I admitted that to her. What kind of fool does that? What the *@## was I thinking!

I hate this about myself. Too anxious, worry too much, too impulsive! I am not overly attached to her by any means. I would be acting this way had I sent something so personal to a friend of mine and was waiting on a reply.

Waiting... waiting...waiting.....I just want to go to sleep and not wake up until Monday morning!