You know what? I get so irritated that we are supposed to go into therapy and NOT have feelings for our therapist. The relationship is one sided. We spill out guts about every emotional heartache we have gone through, every trauma we have faced, and anything else that has strong emotional ties to it.

Therapists are trained to sit there with a 'poker face'. They are trained not to be emotional, but to be the rock that we can lean on. The one person that helps us problem solve and put our lives back together.

Months ago, I told my therapist that I did not want to have any emotion for her at all! You know, that is impossible to do! I came to her with relationship issues. She is well aware of my fear to get close to anyone. Yet, in this therapy process, I have formed a bond with her.

I hate that!!! She doesn't have a bond with me at all. Sure she cares about me and wants me to get better. But it is not the same as how we (the client) feel about them. What is up with all of this!

The more I sit here and stew over confessing that to her, the angrier I get. It almost feels like I am a victim of this. I fought this HARD for a long time. I do not attach to people at all, yet here I am forming an attachment with her.

It makes me want to quit and never go back. I almost hate her right now. That is sad because she has really helped me a lot.