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Originally Posted by tarmyg
Squiggle - I am so sorry you are feeling so stressed waiting for your therapist to respond to you.
Maybe your therapist has been waiting on this with you.
Don't beat yourself up for your e-mail. What you expressed to her had to have been your true feelings. Therapists strive for the day where we can get to this point with them.
My wish for you is that you find peace in knowing that you opened up to her in a way that, at the time, you felt was something you needed to do.
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tarmyg~thanks for your support. I read back through the email I sent and see it quite differently. It was not as bad as I was thinking. I was somewhat indirect and 'beat around the bush' some. But I am sure she got the hint. I didn't say I was in love with her, or had fantasies about her. I just told her that the feelings I was having were not comfortable for me.
I am trying to see this as a positive. I agree with you that therapists strive for the day when we can be totally transparent with them. This is when the real healing can take place. I realize that this is the weekend. She has a family with two children that are active in sports and things in the community. She is active in her church as well. I am sure that she has been busy tending to her family.
I am sure she has read it by now, but has to wait for a time when she can sit down and give a proper response (that is what she calls it). She probably won't go into a lot of detail about the 'feelings'. I am sure she will just try to calm me down and let me know that it is okay to feel like that, and she is not creeped out by it.
I have a good idea that we will talk about this on Monday. I don't want to! I want to forget that I ever brought it up, but I know she won't let me.