Phew! She finally responded. This is what she wrote:

"You did a good job being honest with your feelings. I am not dropping you as a client nor will I abandon you. As I said, you did good. I will send a more detailed response later when I have more time. Just take a deep breath and know you are working hard."
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Thank God! I can relax now! As to the therapeutic bond, you guys are right about that. There has to be some sort of bond in order for therapy to work. Maybe I was thinking more of the emotional attachment and how it is not reciprocated. We need them, they don't necessarily need us.

It is complicated for sure. The strangest relationship I have ever dealt with!

I am just breathing a sigh of relief that she wrote me back. I knew she would. She always does. I was just freaking out that I admitted this to her!!! Talk about humiliation!!!