I have had so much to deal with, that I think my happy emotions are numb. I want to be happy! I want to be excited about things and look forward to doing stuff... but I feel let down so often that now, I am just here. I still have some anxiety, when I worry and I feel stressed out from time to time. I am sort of sad most of the time, depressed. I used to love to sew and do crafts, good movies, but now, I just feel like I could have been doing something productive instead of wasting my time ... so I dont really enjoy it.

I want to feel something other than sad.