Well, i told him, if not in the exact way I wanted to, that if he didn't start to be nicer to me, and if he didn't want to work on this relationship, that I am not as weak as he thinks i am, and i will leave. I was trying to explain to him that the things he says to me hurt me, and he responded to me to tell me that he holds back a lot. that doesn't matter. the things that come out hurt. he shouldn't be doing that. he just doesn't get it or he just doesn't care.

He was saying our relationship is broken. And i asked him if he wanted to fix it....and i told him i just wanted him to WANT to fix it. He said he did. and then he left with his friend.

i really like the idea of a pro/con list...or a cost benefit analysis. I keep looking at my finances to see if i could really swing moving out if i had to. I spent so much money on my stupid wedding that I'm still paying off.

I just feel so lost. The support of this group is so wonderful. it's the only place where i can say everything oither than my therapist, who i'm not seeing for another week and a half now so I'm so glad for this. you guys are giving me strength.