First of all, there is nothing wrong with being a welder. I wouldnt care if you were a cook at McD's.
But I know just how you feel. I am lonely also and I have people around. The thing I noticed about those "other" fun loving people... self confidence. I lack it and it shows.

I cannot change one thing that happened yesterday, last week, year or in my childhood. So I am trying to learn how to accept my past, and to be a more out-going person. I am working on ME to make me happier and when that shows, I think people would want to be around.

I have to remember that when some one ask me how I am today, they dont want to hear my whole life story of why I am depressed. So I am trying to quit telling it .

I want to be fun and carefree. I want to enjoy life and I want a good man to do that with.