((((((Beautiful Pain)))))) Don't feel bad about going back to the hospital if you need it. I have been several times (it gets "easier" lol). I can only promise to make it through Christmas also, but I guess that would mean another hospital stay, instead of my other plans.
Please keep safe, and go to the hospital if you need to.
(PS- I love Happy Bunny- I have yours on my background display now- Thanks!)