The great thing about a community like this is that you get to share your feelings with people who understand your condition - because we are living it. I've had the same problem like you. As a child, when I had a problem I was told it was my fault. Eventually I started keeping things to myself and little by little started to sink into my own world. For many years I refused to share my innermost thoughts with anyone for fear I would upset them or affect their "mood". Now I know that's never a healthy approach to life. If those closest to you shut you down, find another forum to express yourself. We're here for you.