Last night I was hanging out with a friend watching tv. For no reason I could understand I kept getting more and more depressed. To make matters worse he could tell and kept asking me about every 20 seconds if I was ok (this is a big trigger for me). So I started to get mad. Then I accidentally dropped the remote for my ipod docking station under my headboard and couldn't retrieve it even after moving the bed. I said I was a failure, my friend said I wasn't it was just a stupid remote and we'd find it later.

Then all of a sudden there were two opposing trains of thought in my head. One of them, it for lack of a better term, hated me and hated my friend. It wanted to make my friend angry so he would leave. It also wanted to torture him for being nice to me. I felt like I was just helplessly watching this occur, all those nasty things that came out of my mouth... then I'd get the chance to speak and try to explain it wasn't me. It was mad and it wanted me dead. I felt like there were my thoughts and it's thoughts fighting in my head. My friend asked if he needed to call someone. I said no.

After about 30-40 min it just went away. My friend asked what had happened and I said I had no idea. He said well, was it another personality? I said they're usually not coaware. He said well, is it schizophrenia? I said I don't know. He said well, you need to talk to your T about this (I have an appt Tues). I said duh.

What happened? anyone have any idea...or been though something similar?