To everyone who has replied to my thread

You have all given me some interesting thoughts and very helpful suggestions on what I should do and I've sat here reading them all intensly and going thru them a couple of time to absorb them.

The first thing I will do is email my bf (Valentines Day today how appropriate) and tell him I am concerned about him and ask him how is coping and let him know that he is not alone. Thanks Jademoonbeam and everyone else who suggested that.

Second thing I'm going to do is concentrate on me feeling better about me and not thinking this is all my fault (and feeling I'm not worthy for anything) and get rid of these negative vibes. Perhaps that might allow the right job to come forward for me.

Third thing is acceptance. Please don't get me wrong about my situation with my husband - I know he can't help the way he is and I'm not angry or bitter about it. I just need to accept that this is way it is going to b from now on. Thank you Risak.

However it was Michah's reply that really hit the nail on the head when he/she said I need to grieve for my loss of job and my marriage. Until I had read this I didn't realise that this was what was going on inside me. Thank you Michah.

If I've forgotten anyone I apologise but I sincerley wish to say a huge thank you to you all for replying to my dilemna. I will keep you updated and hopefully have some happier news soon.

It's so nice to know I have some support out there in cyber space. I know this really isn't about my bipolar although I did think that my moods (very low) were part of it but now I realise I'm actually going thru huge life events and that's really what's impacting on me.

I really thank you all heaps from the bottom of my heart for replying.
Bye for now. I'll keep you posted.