(((((((((((Squiggle)))))))))))))
Good for you for being so honest. Working through all of my big, big, big feelings for T has been a big part of my therapy. I just love him, A LOT. I used to tell him "my love for you is TOO BIG", because it just felt overwhelming.
Somehow, it's calmed down into a secure attachment. Maybe I have just learned to be more comfortable with feelings - so it's not that I love him less, but it's that feelings aren't so surprising and overwhelming to me anymore.
When I started therapy, I told T that my goal was to "feel my feelings". Boy, have I second-guessed that about a zillion times!!
Good luck tomorrow



