It's funny, I don't think there's anything wrong with me medically - I just felt the overwhelming need to ***** & moan about how worn out I feel, how old I feel, how the grey hairs are winning. There is so much gossip & backstabbing going on at work & I'm not looking forward to having to go back to those people tomorrow, but my Yule resolution is to get out of the gossip chain, which may solve some of the tension & resentment that's building up. It's gotten so bad that I actually updated my resume' & posted it on HotJobs. I always tell people "If your job is making you that miserable, find a new job!" and as I was going through my closet trying to find a wearable suit, I saw just how tired & severe I've started to look everytime I looked in the mirror. Drawn & ragged around the edges. One week off every 6 months isn't long enough!!!

On the upside, well, at least I do have a job, and some of my coworkers are pretty cool people who strive to provide me with entertainment, and I did have a good vacation entailing a lot of loafing & eating good food & watching bad movies & long, warm baths.

Thyroid is one thing I've ruled out, but for different reasons. Mine actually runs on the high side of normal, which surprised my doctor ("How can you be fat w/normal blood sugar, normal cholesterol AND a high thyroid?!"). I actually got my thyroid checked out because my sister had hers removed (it was basically 'dead') & all these women at my job are being diagnosed w/thyroid cancer & other thyroidal problems. I know it's the water out here - all that rocket fuel!

I just think w/chronic illnesses that for the most part, all a doctor can do is offer support - aspirin & sympathy. Change your diet, exercise more, take NSAID's. There are no 'cures', only treatments for the symptoms.