Everyone.

I really am trying. I am struggling to turn my petals towards the sun but I don't have much energy. I don't feel good.

The ghosts of Christmas past should get easier to deal with in time...not more difficult. I guess because of my health issues, life and death just seem more magnified and bleak. I don't really know. I guess I am just scared and sad. Simple as that.

But I am trying real hard to cheer up. I will even muster up a smile for you today. I might even laugh.