Thank you everyone for your replies.

I'm trying t obe postive about everything, but I sometimes cannot push myself to take that extra step.

I want to get an education, I would like a job, but I do not feel ready for it. I wonder if I will ever be. I've been out of work for at least 2 yrs now, and haven't had that many jobs to begin with... When it comes to the interview I'm too nervous even though I think of what I'm going to tell that person the day before, but when it actually comes to saying it I go blank, like in a test.

My psychiatrist always told me that I'm the interviewer and I should be the one going forward and asking all these questions.

But my self-esteem and confidence is so low. My psychiatrist also said to me that the more interviews I go to the easier it will become, but every time that I go and fill out a job ap, or bring it back home to fill it out, when it comes to education, I freeze, and don't put anything, and I think if I don't put anything they'll definatly not hire me... ARGH!!!!!!!!!