I was put on various cocktails that contained ssri/snris along with anti-psychotics. Effexor, cymbalta and wellbutrin all caused me to disassociate and drove me to such terrifying altered states where I thought the only option was suicide. I am lucky to still be here.

My best friend is not, he was prescribed effexor and a adhd med along with his lamictal as he was going through such a rough depression for so long, but was not suicidal. Within a month he took his life.

We saw the same pdoc, I decided to go off my meds at this time because I knew they were making me worse, and killed my best friend and the doc tried to section 12 me. My husband and I ended up having to go on an impromptu "vacation" out of state to avoid getting me locked up in a hospital for "non-compliance" it was awful.

Eventually I went back into therapy at a different clinic, and have been with this therapist for a year now. I am still scared of pdocs and only sort of trust my treatment team, but I'm still afraid of being sectioned.