Everyone i talk 2 online has said i need, or even "desperately" need to see a professional. I think i will, but im ONLY going to if im absolutely 100% sure theres no way ANYONE even if i dont know them, will see me or know im going. I want it to be totally 100% anonymous. Dont try and talk me out of this i want it this way.

But the problem is if i go to see sum1 and im like waiting for the door to open for me or something and i dont care if the others waiting have problems worse than me i still dont want them to see me go in. And while im in the room i would be really uncomfortable that someone could know, or when i go out someone might see me. I know the world good enough to know that people in areas are nosy, and would know what a building has in it including a psychologist.

So i thought maybe phone help, but i dont like the idea of my voice being put out into the telephone when i cannot even see the psychologist or whats around him. Makes me feel insecure.

Plus, when i talk i mostly use body language and it would be so awkward and he might get wrong idea as opposed to if he saw my body language.