Elana, you are doing good work. Very good work for what you accomplished in there.
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Originally Posted by Elana05
I wanted to attack my T for every other thing she said. I wanted to shake my partner. I just want to yell.
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These are important feelings. I hope you get a chance to explore these in therapy. Would you consider mentioning this in therapy?
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Originally Posted by Elana05
Being in a relationship is like existing within a house of mirrors. When I see her come close I carefully move closer, when I see her pull away I quickly pull away - always too late. But... is she really pulling away? I can't tell. Is it an illusion?
What I learned about trust and love while growing up makes an intimate relationship into a house of mirrors. When do I trust? When do I shut down and pull away? I'm just never safe.
Don't let anyone get too close.
When I met my partner, I set off from the shore swimming. Everything was blue and clear. But now I am lost in the water. I can't see the shore anymore and I don't know how far it is to the next island. I just keep swimming. Hoping I'll make it.
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This ^ would be good to share in session too.