Hi! and welcome to PC. there are a lot of people here who will listen and support you.

i'm not sure that i can help you but first i would suggest that you take some of the quizzes that we have onsite and see if any of your feelings matchs up to any particular quiz.

do you have a chance to see a therapist and talk this out IRL? if you can do that, please do so. keep me posted. xoxox pat