So, my husband had his appointment with his therapist last week. He knows how insecure I felt about him going because she was pressuring him to leave me. He told me that I was not discussed. That what is between us is between us. A couple of days later, I found an email between him and his therapist. He was telling the therapist what kind of medication I was on and about a conversation that we had about him being dishonest (what he wrote was only half true...he added things to make it seem like he was doing what his therapist would have wanted him to do). The therapist replied with a description of my medication and telling him how proud she is of him. I did not tell him I read the email, but he knew because he changed his password. The next day, he told me that there is no such thing as a bad decision. If you are doing what you feel is right, then it should not matter who's feelings are hurt as long as you are happy. Is this just an excuse for everytime he has ever lied to me? Was this something his therapist came up with? Why does he have to lie to me about talking about me at therapy? All I want is the truth.

I want so bad to trust him and leave this all behind us. I asked him if he wanted to go to marriage counseling and he agreed. I think we have a serious issue with communication. I don't know what to think anymore. He tells me that he loves me then he lies to me. But, on the same hand he lies to his therapist also--well, exagerates conversations....sometimes to the extreme. Is there something wrong with him? Is there a possibility he doesn't even realize he's lying?

And, to top it all off, today is Valentine's Day and I am left wondering if the man that says he loves me actually does.

I'm still confused and hurt.