You're putting so many restrictions on getting help that I'm wondering if you really want that help or not. Seems like you've pretty much shut down all the avenues to getting that help.

If I remember right, you're a minor. How are you going to pay for your therapy if you even get there?? Rethinking your restrictions, I think, is in order here.

Do you realize that in some circles it's a "status symbol" to have a therapist?