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Originally Posted by mgran
Your sister who said that "she would know" if her daughter was being abused is not just insulting you, she's also insulting her parents. She's implying that she's a better mother than your Mom. And yet she is KNOWINGLY hosting a paedophile in her house.
Seriously, the way your family are treating you makes me think that they're very twisted and sick. Do you have any support system other than your family to fall back on? Ideally you need to distance yourself from people who are so toxic to you. Please don't think I'm saying that they're all bad, I don't know them... but I do know from what you've said that there's something very seriously wrong... and it's not you.
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Thankyou so much Mgran! At times, I felt like I was being unreasonable when I would get angry at the fact that my sis is hosting the pedophile. My mom is extremely loving as in she does lots of things for me, but she can't give me much emotional support. Anytime i tell her something, she criticizes me and I feel attacked. She's VERY critical of me, my actions, blames me for things that aren't my fault. ex:
Space issues in the house.
her response:
UGH! since the day you landed, my house is in a mess. its never like this. you're so messy. you never clean up, you dont do this you dont do that. youve ruined my house, thsi is so shameful... etc etc.
When in reality, (she knows this in the back of her head), THERE IS NOT ENOUGH SPACE HERE!!!
And I have to go through like 11 issues daily like the one i described above with my mom, its very exhausting.
But on the other hand, i feel bad for her because she takes care of my dad all the time, he's ill. and she's worn out. so, maybe she's taking it all out on me. but she takes it out on my dad as well. it just hurts me when she does it to me, regardless of what the real reason behind it is...
I don't have a support system at all. I stopped making friends at the age of 12. My dad isolated me, kept me in the house, because he was scared i'd get pregnant and that'd ruin my life. So he jus kept me away from people, wouldn't trust me eventhough everyone knew I don't lie! and i don't! till this date. At that time, It was me against ALL of them, excluding my mom ofcourse who wouldn't know whats going on.. so i went into a shell.
I used to be a very energetic, sociable kid. But then, it just all went down and i ended up being the lonely one. I'm 27 today, still feel extremely lonely, just don't know how to be back that kid again.
I'm scared to open up to others. I also have a hard time identifying "who" is the right person to open up to and who's not. as in, who's mean and abusive and who's not...