All those people are going to want to talk to us. I am trying to tell alice they might not be scary and that we HAVE to talk to them but she doesn't want to. She wants to shut them out. She doesn't believe in it all any more and I am not sure I do either. I don't know what we should do or how much we will be able to do. I'm scared caroline will run away. IF she does and I come out then theyw ill think everything is fine and i know we have to let them see how hard it is. But if alice comes out we won't get anywhere and I don't think we should let shula out at all.

elsie