Thank you all, I'm going to think on these responses.... very helpful..Yes that is just how it is, I want to stamp my feet, I'm glad you picked up on that. I am feeling very childlike at the moment, vulnerable, and fed up with the dependency therapy seems to offer. Thanks a lot for the understanding everyone. This is not the best fit for me, I can tell...I feel like I am lost in a maze and very resentful right now.. I wish the focus were on skills, not meds... I wish the relationship were more satisfying...