I'm sorry your experiencing this frustration in your. Sounds like your having a hard time. It's okay to be upset, and it's okay to post whatever it is you need to say to feel better. That's what all this is here for, you.
Your doing the right thing by letting go and expressing these feelings. Writing is a healthy way of letting go. Much healthier then harming yourself.
You can come here and ramble all you want, I haven't been here that long but I do know everybody is very nice and supportive here. We all ramble too.
I hope you feel better, don't let the emotions eat you up, let go.
Desirae