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Tonight I was speaking to my friend. She is probably my closest friend I have in RL. She keeps asking if I am ok and everytime she asks me I say ye I am fine or that I am ok. I don't really elobrate. I do have times I complain, moan, have needed her and she has always been there. This I am grateful for.

I don't like telling people in RL my problems and issues as I feel I am burden on them. I hate people having to think of me... I don't know why but I do.

Anyways tonight we were speaking and she asked if I was ok? I said up and down. She said about the excerise that I said I would do as I have put a bit of weight on making me larger than I should be. I spoke about it. She kept saying this will be another thing I put off and off and off. Anyways I don't know what got us talking about this but I said I hadn't been honest with her and that I had disappointed her again. She asked how. I said I have stopped taking my evening med as I dont see it doing anything to me or for me. I know I should take it but I don't want it or need it. She was really angry and said she is angry and upset and very disappointed in me. Said she doesn''t think she can talk more to me tonight. She said I need to wake up and think why I hide things from people and lie to people. This in turn hurt me. I kept saying sorry to her and she said empty sorrys though.

What do I do? Have I lost another friend cause of me being ME???

I wrote her a long email and have sent it.... explaining things

I have told her the other day I do better in emails/texts than face to face talking. I don't know why I can't talk openingly face to face

I feel I have lost her and I am upset