Thanks Kitty004567,

I guess it's hard when I rely on people. I never use to rely on anyone and since becoming ill its been a constant thing I need. I have kept the email and have asked for her to read it and if she wants anything answered that I haven't included then just to ask. As I said I do better not being face to face.

When I am out with her on her own or with our other friend I am quiet cause I don't want to lower the mood or depress anyone. I do the same with our mutual friend too. I hate them wondering/asking if I am ok.

The friend in question said in a text yesterday that we would speak today and I just couldn't do it. A part from that we only had 2 hours together as she had to go. I just felt blah after that. You know when you come out of seeing the Doctor and you know the session could of went better and you didn't get to say this and that etc