Thank you..Thank you all. we dont have a children's hospital close but he does have a good pdoc.he tried him a week on adderral and when my son lost 4 pounds and was basically a zombie he took him off and refered us to the psychologist who is my therapists husband.he agrees with me on the bi polar,but he is still evaluating my son to be 100 percent sure.my son has been on and off a suicide watch since he was 3 yrs old and told me he shot himself in the head when he was 16(past life recall) he has told me many times when he is down that he wants to die,thinks the world would be better without him,ect... we are on a new road with him,a new understanding.before everything was a fight,now armed with new knowledge,new tools. we are working to lessen his sadness,help him not think that suicide is an option. thank you again, all of you for the wisdom you have shared. thank you.