I went to my mailbox today and found my pdoc at upped my dosage of lithium. I called him to confirm and he said from my last blood draws, I'd probably been manic for about 1 1/2 months.

I thought about this a lot today and it explains why I have sudden cravings to do things I wouldn't normally do.

I also thought about my very brief affair with a man. And I though WITH A MAN! What was I thinking? I called my therapist and we talked for a while and she noticed that I was very upset about this. I told her that I don't date men but I actually though I was in love with him and today I'm like ehhh, forget about it.

I did get hurt when he dumped me for his ex (his ex dumped him for Valentines Day dinner tonight) Karma.

I hate when my mania goes this far and it scares me. What do you all do to calm down? My thoughts are just racing!

Help!