Wow. you have been through allot. I am so impressed that you are conquering your fears to push beyond the past. You will find more freedom in your emotions and life as you work through your issues.

I can identify with feeling like I have no one to fall back on. One thing that has helped me is getting involved where I can meet stable people and mentors. Church is a good place. A ladies group may allow you to open up and share about yourself and find someone who welcomes you in their life.
*Hugs*