Good luck in figuring out which parts will work for you and which parts you can leave out. That said, I have a new theory that I made up all by myself that no one else ever thought of - Usually if there is something I don't want to do in 12-step, that I am capable of, then there's probably a damn good reason I should be doing it.

I know, nothing special, but letting go is so damn hard. I feel for you bud. Hang in there and keep going back. Eventually, it hurts less than not going.