wow. hugs
life is so HARD and COMPLEX. be gentle with yourself.
i understand how wierd it is for something to feel awful but, feel like the right thing to do. its a very confusing place to be in. hope you find your way off the shore. you'll MAKE it! sending blessings your way.... JAZZY.
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A bird doesn't sing because it has all the answers, it sings because it has a song.
Maya Angelou.
so sing. Jazz, sing. --jazzy123456
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"You're not here merely to make a living. You are here to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, and with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world. You impoverish yourself if you forget this errand." (Woodrow Wilson)