First of all, the housing program I live in is for people with psych issues. I was once again recently approached by a man in this same program who is interested in and wants to go out with me. He even wrote me a 3+ page letter and gave me a teddy bear. His behavior and such request for fraternization are against the program rules. I have PTSD and my emotional reactions are unstable. Consequently, I had tears last night and tonight. I told someone on staff here and showed her the note and teddy bear. She said that I am "a big girl" and can deal with it, with what he is doing. So now I sit here in my room with tears in my eyes! (To top things off, I've been having bad dreams and told her this also cuz it only contributes to emotional reactions.)I mentioned how what the man said bothered me so much last night. I dont know how to get the staff to understand! i feel like running away. I feel like I only belong with other people like me who have PTSD and not living with a broad spectrum of the DSM. I have tried talking to staff--but to tell me that I am "a big girl"?! When I have PTSD and have unstable emotions?! How do I get them to understand?!
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