Dear friend... you need to be 'fit and well to be sick' in this society. How energy draining having to go through this long process of stupidity. I know you're not the one to give up... You've managed to find your way through many storms before and I'm convinced you will do so this time as well.
It's not a sign of weakness hun to share your thoughts and worries. Yes, I know it feels like it is. We're put on this earth together with so many others and empathy is still alive. You're always so caring towards your fellow human beings and friends... so why not let others be a bit supportive to you.

You will reach a solution to your financial difficulties. Very hard to be patient though when you're hurting and not feeling well. Money issues can really drag one down.

The most important thing is for you to try your very best to take care of YOU. Please try to get the rest and sleep needed and continue using the power nature gives... taking your walks and 'looking at the stars and the moon'.

/N