estee, you aren't selfish. your disease is talking to you. those tapes are running in your head.

i'm sure you mum means well and i am also sure that it drives you crazy. i know that i can't take much talking either. sometimes i'd like to slap a customer. or scream "shut the ---- up".

i think it might help to make a list for your Pdoc and show it to her. show her your concerns. can you e.mail her? i'm here. keep me posted. xoxoxo pat