I can't really go into my entire story because it would simply take too long to relay... but right now, there's so much going on. It's so overwhelming. I can't shake this feeling of utter hopelessness and a complete lack of a future with anything positive.

All the family and friends I care about aside from my daughter are sick or have made unhealthy life decisions or both. I have limited my exposure to them but it still hurts tremendously to see them suffer. Soon I will be living alone again after many years, and I'm frightened I won't be able to handle it, that I'll just fall apart at the seams.

It seems there is nothing I can do to truly help anyone, even my child. I just want to have a little time to catch my breath. I feel myself inching closer to completely shutting down every day, having run this marathon for so long.

Is this all there really is to life? How can it be possible to withstand all this when I'm already down on the proverbial ground and the hits keep coming?

I'm strong but not this strong. It's never enough.