((( MUE )))

I wish I could contribute something helpful but I have never done group and can't see myself doing it, either. As I read your post I kept thinking, oh, then I would do this. (read read) Oh I would do this instead!! etc etc

I think you are very brave to keep it up, this all sounds SO hard to me. I hope that things resolve peacefully for you (if that's what it's supposed to be like) here