I was posting on another site about my sexual abuse from my step-father and started to have all kinds of physical flashbacks where I could feel all the fear and bodily sensations like I was 10 years old again and back in that situation. It's like the abuse never goes away.

Then I started crying. I was wondering if I ruined my mom's life by telling her about the abuse. Then I wondered if she was proud of me, or if she approved of me, or if she even liked me because of the way I look now...I gained a lot of weight after my step-father molested me. I can't seem to take it off, either. My brother and sister are both very thin, my mother is thin. Everybody but me. Is that ok with her? Was it ever? Or was a just a fat worthless person to her? I wonder these things sometimes. All because I was abused. The truth will never be known, either.