That is tremendously good advice P... It has only been within the last five years or so that I began to even see (and I mean that in the literal sense) that there had been so much that was wrong with the people in my life and my relationship to them. So in reality it hasn't been all that long that all of the twisted lies and dirty little family secrets began to unravel and I could see them for what they truly were - and there is one thing that I do know and that is once you learn narcissism, there is absolutely no unlearning it. The problem has been, in being raised that way - I always thought I was the one with problems. Everything was my fault, something was wrong with me, I was worthless, undeserving etc, etc...it's taken me half a lifetime to understand that simply is not the case. I guess I have sought love the only way I knew how.

I appreciate the response. I'm doing the best I can, but sometime it just feels like my life is a broken record and I am doomed to keep repeating the same mistakes.

I'm happy you finally found contentment. I don't expect a relationship to make me whole, I'm not looking for that - I would just like to find one that is not "sick"

xo

J