Thanks again for the response P.

I do feel like I may be growing cold in many ways and cynical. It won't be long and I will be fifty years old - I feel like it's just too late sometimes P and that that ship sailed long ago. Most of the time I feel as if it doesn't really matter anymore.

I hope and pray that I don't end up old and alone with a house full of cats!!

but in all honesty - my biggest fear is that my heart will grow hard.