Well, the short answer is "yes" it is your choice to make IMO.

However, IMO, the long (and more truthful) answer is
"It is important to grieve the fact that at one time in your life you were a victim and powerless. You get to mourn that fact because it is awful and tragic and unfair. It takes skills to make that choice come out of that mourning. It takes a while to not only develop those skills, but also the confidence and belief in those skills to sustain and assume ownership of that choice and your life. You get to move forward, fall back, languish where you are, then rise up again."

It is also my opinion that every single time you show up to therapy, think about what occurred in therapy, talk about your life and feelings, that you are making a conscious choice to free yourself. You are already walking that path of healing and choice and it's a long one.

I'm sure you are trying plenty hard.

Perhaps a good place to start asserting your new found freedom from contamination (WTF?) is to tell your therapist that you hear her, and to some degree might agree with her, but nonetheless, it is your desire for her to shut the hell up for the moment and give you some space.

Also IMO.

Okay, I would likely never to that, but I'll tell you, I would think it really really hard.