I haven't been here in a while. I haven't had this feeling in a while either. I haven't hurt myself in almost 3 years, but now I'm having the strongest urge to. I know I can't because my son is here with me, but no one is understanding me and I feel like I have no one to talk to. My husband just came home from prison 2 months ago. He was gone for 4 years. I'm now 11 months pregnant, anemic, depressed and haven't had much energy. My husband doesn't understand at all. He thinks I'm lazy. He's really negative about almost everything. He was making feel suicidal and hopeless before because of the way he would stress out and think negative about everything. My husband is not listening to me and what I did in the past when people wouldn't listen or understand is SI. I don't have a doc appt until March 1st, so I don't know what to do right now. I'm having an emotional breakdown and don't know how to get this urge to go away or how to get my husband to understand how I'm feeling. My closest friend that lives in town doesn't even understand. She thinks my husband has more right feeling how he does (that I'm lazy and not helping or trying to do work related things). I can't even think about things like that right now.