Kasva, I might sound like a total moron here as my knowledge of DID is limited, but is there a personality that can advocate for the other ones, including most importantly the little ones that you speak of?

I don't know if this helps, because I do not have DID, but I do have a lot of voices and people that live inside of me that have different genders, species and ages(This is based on a lot of stereotypical roles - female for sadness, female child for guilt, male wolf for anger, older chinese wise man for insight and logic and so on). I have Aspergers syndrome and part of that is the "fantasy world" that I have generated to deal with certain emotions that I can't explain or understand. I have a wolf that is my anger. He used to be very scary and violent and I would try and run from him in horror, but the more I ignored him, the louder and more aggressive he became.

So, all my voices and people (good and bad) with the central advocate being my "spirit" or "higher person" started to speak to the wolf and pat him. And as I paid more attention to him and asked him questions about why he was so angry, I came to some startling revelations. And once he felt wanted and not so ignored, he became less angry. Rather than push the Anger Wolf away, I embraced him. And then I started to do it with the Sadness woman and the Guilt child and now they even talk to each other. Forgiveness then started to follow for all the people that hurt me. The thing with forgiveness, is that I did it for me, not for others.

As I said, I have NO idea if this even relates to your situation and my deepest apologies if I am making the situation worse or if I sound contrite for it is my sincerest wish NOT to be so, but your post stood out to me.

Could your Little ones write to you or another personality and then write back? It is totally natural for you to feel rage and anger towards people that have hurt you, but there is a way to become more joyful and to experience peace. Takes A LOT of work but it can be done, or I believe so.

Take very good care of your precious selves.......

Michah