T is there for us when we need them. Your T was there when you needed her.
You can't undo your need for T at that time. And you did the right thing at the time.
We live in a human world and have human needs. Sometimes the needs are at a very primative level of our mind. The logical mind sometimes doesn't understand what the primative mind needs.

http://www.calgarypsychology.com/psy...fulness/brains

That is a simple way to show it there.

Don't be hard on yourself and get into an emotional rabbit hole.
Just let yourself continue to grow and get stronger each day!